27 March 2008
Dear Sweetie,
I’m still hoping that everything will be alright. Please bear with me… You know how painful it is to accept everthing.
Just always have patience. Stay with me.
Only Yours,
shiveringbluestar
February 15, 2008
15 February 2008
Dear Sweetie,
PLEASE keep your words.
That’s all.
Yours,
shiveringbluestar
February 1, 2008
01 February 2008
Dear Sweetie,
It will soon be Valentine’s Day again and you’re not here. Not that I’m expecting us to celebrate it, it just feels different that you’re not here. It will be the second Valentine’s day we have that we’re apart.
In all my life, I haven’t had someone to celebrate Valentine’s Day with. Surprised about that? It’s true. No one has ever given me chocolates, flowers, or anything on that day. And I’ve gotten myself used to it.
I don’t know why but perhaps I’m expecting that this year’s going to be different. But maybe, I expected too much. You can’t be here and I feel so sad about it.
I terribly miss you…
Much love and longing,
shiveringbluestar
January 22, 2008
Dear Mocha,
I’m bothered again. Bothered by so many things that I never thought would someday hit me. I am so afraid my dear friend… Afraid of what the future brings.
Few days are left before January ends and here I am… anxious. What if he never comes back? What will happen? Will I be able to get all through these?
Or, if he comes back… can I really bear to spend the rest of my life with him? Will I be able to endure his flirtatious nature?
I am so afraid… I don’t know what kind of future awaits me now. Everything became so uncertain. I feel as though just with one wrong move, I’m through.
I wish you’re here with me. I want to cry all these things out.. And yet, I realized, I don’t want to worry or hurt anyone. Maybe you could call me selfish for bearing all these alone. But somehow you know that I’m really like this.
I miss you…
Take care always,
shiveringbluestar
November 21, 2007
21 November 2007
Dear Sweetie,
I’ve just read a very cheesy blog a while ago. I thought I won’t be able to stand it but here I am. Writing a cheesy entry myself. So as early as now, I warn you… This entry might be very mushy.
It’s a day and a couple of hours before our anniversary and I can’t help but feel excited about it. I know that you are not used to celebrating this kind of stuff. You don’t like those formalities and everything but then you bear with me. Thanks a lot Sweetie…
You know what, I feel like pulling the time and make it fast. I wanna be with you already. I miss you as always…
I can’t believe that it has been a year already. Who would have thought that we’ll last this long? And yet again… why shouldn’t we? We always compliment each other in a lot of things.
One year is actually not enough… And I know that everything doesn’t end here.
I’m hoping that it will always be us…
Much Love,
shiveringbluestar
