What If…

15 November 2008

2:39 p.m.

 

Dear Precious,

I am in the middle of a blogging seminar right now. And guess what. My mind is drifting away. Flying towards memories of you. Of us.

This shouldn’t be happening anymore. I mean, there was never US, right? But then what if… What if I poured out everything I have for you before…?

*sighs*

I guess this is just another after effect of the video I was able to watch yesterday…

I wonder how you would react…

 

Take care dearest,

shiveringbluestar

 

Better Off as Friends

Take Note: The letter was written last year

07 March 2006

12:02 a.m.

Dear Precious,

I don’t know how to start sayin’ the things I wanna say in this letter. It seems that I’ve said too much in my previous letters to you that I already ran out of things to say…

I’m finally over you.

Very simple, right? But it wasn’t.

I’ve loved you since we were in Grade Six and I’ve always dreamed that it will be the two of us for the rest of my life… But, I woke up one day and realized that we’re just really friends and it’s better to keep it that way.

It was February 8 this year. I was with two of my friends and a guy who happened to be one of my friends’ cousin. We were biking that time and I was really emotional coz it was the same date when we watched “Titanic” six years ago.

I drove the bike so fast and tested myself. In my whole life, I haven’t ride a bike and drove it with just one hand. I was so afraid in doing it because of possible accidents. But this time, I was able to do it using both of my hands alternately. Then, I said to myself that I could live without hoping that you’ll love me and without loving you. It all started there….That same date that became another memorable moment for me because I was able to get close to another man who swept me off my feet.

Well, I’m really glad that I don’t feel anything for you anymore… I don’t have to suffer in silence anymore because of my love for you… It’s better this way. It’s better for us to be close and just friends.

Always take good care. I love you as my dearest friend ever!

Love,

shiveringbluestar

 

Last Letter for a Jerk

20 May 2007

2:47 a.m.

Dear ‘Amasa/Ai,’

You might be so surprised that I wrote to you. Don’t worry. I won’t beg to have you back. I’m happy now. Blissful in the arms of my Sweetie.

I just wanted to thank you for our break-up. If not for that, I would not have been the great person I am right now. Though, it still sucks that the end of us was because of the fact that you cheated on me for two months. Anyway, I don’t give a damn about it anymore. It’s not so worthy of my very precious time.

I wish you ‘both’ to be happy with each other. I hope that you are no longer the JERK that I used to know.

And, I will never ever call you ‘Amasa’ or ‘Ai’ anymore. Not even in my thoughts or dreams. (Asa ka pa that you still cross my mind noh…  hmph!)

Just me,

shiveringbluestar

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Amasa — a Nippongo word which means “sweet” or “sweetness”.

Ai — a Nippongo word which means “love”.